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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

november update

the summer, good that the camps went over well. and thats july

august comes a week in a camp near artik with environmental education with kids. otherwise not very steady, see the new group of volunteers sworn-in. must be a mid-service depression.

september kids are back to school we spent a couple days running round neighbourhoods trying to spread the news of the flex program which sends some kids (age 14) to the US for a year. applied to a couple of business schools and thats a month.

october is almost over, went tree planting one day, was sick for a week. trying to set up paypal account for local kindergarten donations (heating system). help people with small grant applications, working with budget. more clubs, many english clubs. mixed success.

october: miss home a bit. cold now. leaves in red and yellow. moved to new apartment, small with piano. self sufficient. turned down some jobs back home. staying here for the rest of the year it sounds like. going home in 20 days (hong kong, for 37 days) wonder what it be like to have a long vacation? (within this 27 month one)

recent interests: russian and baking (very essential with the long winter)

see some of you soon! until next time


Sunday, June 03, 2007

June Update

Tomorrow is June 4th. Thats right. A date I will not forget. When the editorial of Tai Gung (or is it Min Hui) is but a blank window. The framed five inch by seven inch space on the first page on the upper left corner, as beautiful as the clear white sky. Make you well up in tears every single time you start thinking about it. But, is there really nothing more to say about this?

Eight teen years. A score, and some more, in other words. So, it really has been this long. And some more, that I have been given life, and have struggled, and have, so called, lived. On paper, at least. Its on my passport. In 1989, I was a student in my primary years. The fourth class. Those very important years in thought formation indeed. I had a profession already. I do not really have one now. No specialty (And interestingly, now I am even more lost than when I was ten, go figure).

Though looking back, and knowing full well that memory is a faulty device, like these very times when I could not even remember her face very clearly, for one, and it has only been a week. For two, which comes after this one, twenty and three deaths in the darkened square, its size not very much smaller than its cousin, the red square, does not sound too unmistakably false. You can darn well say that, for three, that those very machine guns were not directly aimed at the crowds but is a device to disperse crowds. So the T-72 machinery is but an over sized anti-violence truck, its mountings, its ding ding dong dongs, merely water hoses. As for the 50 caliber rounds designed to tear right through flesh and bone and even stop light armor, you can even crack the joke that its just blanks. Yes, its Hollywood, you know what I mean?

We try to find words to explain all this (and of course I am writing about it, right now, duh). We try to give the series of events leading to the final fireworks, and its remaining waves, a position, a label. But this thinking is precisely like the situation where two not so happy parties argue over whether to call this thing an "incident", as oppose to a "massacre", listing reasons, raising voices, throwing fists, till their cheeks flame and their ears are red. But that aside, the general consensus now seemed to be that we just merely refer to it as an "incident".

Looks like the official version is triumphant. But theres something more. We give it a number. "Six Four" is what we will call it in our casual (or darn serious) discourses, whether this is over tea, after rice (these Chinese people, sigh), or, in a forum as clean and sterile as this very blog. Then it hits you, because you are drawing parallels. To other big big small small events that had been captured in sound and visual, and is presented to you in various times in such documentaries as "Today in those past years..." The kind of show you watch when you only have two channels A and B, or you have hundreds but you fingers are just tired flipping. The three dots in the end of the title is particularly interesting, as then the commentator, after a brief one minute blah, sort of let the pictures and sound take over to speak. When events acquire a number like that, it had entered the hall of fame. Americans like alphabets, for example, D-day. Or they use the place names like so and so harbor. The impressions that it gives is quite different, but I feel the underlying idea is the same. Its what would you call it? Semantics. As if its an explanation to end all things...

There are other versions of course. Like political backing from fractions wanting to seize power. In this case demonstrators and flags and paster made statues resembling the gift from the French to the Americans becomes props to a set and is ultimately reduced to a facade, a puppet show. I bought into this, without much convincing needed, because A, it is totally unverifiable, and that makes it easy to deal with, like most conspiracy theories, and in addition, B, because it can help you make tools and nameless faces out of people who are in truth flesh and blood, brother and sister, son and daughter, father and mother. You can then cook up yet another parallel of the invariably misquoted premier playwright, the line amongst the lines where "life is a stage..." and even if you forget or did not master you old English, you can elegantly complete the sentence and avoid embarassment. Saves time and helps people who lives to endure, the courage to move on.

So lets end by saying that other than saying I will never forget, you might as well put a line across it and say, "I almost did not remember". And theres that.

(Recently moved into an apartment a block away from the central square, near the post office. Eating well and sleeping enough. Relatively uncomplicated situation. With that comes freedom and loneliness. Not sure how these come together. Freedom comes with a price eh (?). But other than that, weather is warm, we skipped Spring altogether, perhaps she was kidnapped by young man and taken into the woods and out of shame cannot come back to her own family. It rains a lot in Lori, but it reminds of the sub-tropics. Hi to the friends over there, whatever you are busy with. Hey don't work too hard. Come on. Only that the air is much better in this small town, I don't miss the dust in the metropolis, but I miss the energy. Hope all is well my dears (you have to say this one with some stupid accent). And couple camps are coming up. I thank again for those who have pledged their support, who out of generosity have even gone as far as loosen their purse strings. Now, it looks like its fully funded that 100 people youth camp of ours. Gives us something to do, I suppose. I am happy for my kids who can participate. From willages and from towns. Its incredible expreience for all I hope. So long, and god speed me friends. Have a great summer!)


Thursday, April 19, 2007

April Update

Three months and not a word from Roger on this forum. I suppose you can explain it away saying there are more important things for him to do. Or simple laziness. The latter holds more water.

Doing fine. What lovely weather, snowing in mid-April. These days the main concern is language skills. It is a very hard language afterall Armenian. Perhaps translating it all into my Chinese dialect will work a little better for learning, but I feel like there is no time anymore for such wrong turns.

Later. Take care all.


Monday, January 22, 2007

January Update (1 of 2)

Salutation

My heartfelt thanks, for those who have corresponded with me over the past months. I appreciate your time while worrying about a) what to buy and b) how to pay off the credit associated with such expenses. I sincerely wish you can manage at the end.

 

Which brings us to this. Whats new, friends? This month I am burning myself up helping to implement this two-country International Youth camp. Details are here. <http://www.iocoalition.org/>

Even the best grants won cover all the expenses. If you have some gifts you don like from Xmas, please return them to the store. And donate a buck or two to this cause, if you so desire.  It fast. It easy. Its tax deductible. Talk with you boss too, for matching donations. Use your magic. For those who are more profit-oriented, lets do this: You come visit the city I reside in anytime, over the rest of my life, I try my best to accommodate your every need. I will personally cook dinner, with stuff I got from the market the same day. My wife will set the table. My young ones will put on a good show at the piano. And I won forget--the rice wine.

 

Your call.

 

Lecture

 

(Based on a time-broken collection)

 

-Why are you working so hard, Dad?

-Everyday I open my eyes I say to myself, that before I close my eyes in the evening, I have to find a way to bring at least 兩皮嘢美金, just to do business and feed family. You know how much you and your dino brother can eat (for he can dissolve bones).

-I see. So, how you manage that?

-Hah... I just do.

-You are my hero.

 

New Year

 

(Based upon a drink-impaired recollection)

 

-Morning, son.

-Morning... Dad?

-Now listen... yesterday night, three bottles I drank.

 

(Look at full shot glass, and the empty shot glass in close proximity, on the breakfast table, also, remembering the half dozen empty bottles sitting out on the snow in the yard, while taking a cigarette break)

 

-(With feigned surprise)What? How many of those half-liter bottles?

 

(Proudly shows three fingers. Of course, I can count, unlike the end of the previous evening)

 

-Umm. How you manage that?

-By drinking this now,

(filling the glass) You too, now... fear not, my son, its healthy. Cheers!

 

-Okay Dad. Wow, brrrrrrrrr~!

 

(Village calculation: 3 shots @ about 1 minute per shot = 3 shots in 3 minutes)

 

-Son, my chest really hurts.

-(I wonder why) Oh-oh, that ain good Dad.

-Hah... I see, that you have become A., son.


Tuesday, December 12, 2006

December Update

Snow had come to Vanadzor! It feels very much like back in the day in Chicago, admiring things covered in white. It actually is warmer when it snows hard. But you got to watch out for the ice especially in your own backyard. 

As usual, quite cheerful, well rested, well supplied, and sleeping a fair bit.   

Hello! Good to see you

-Heard you went to the movie yesterday

-Yes

-Was it good? Was it as good as the book?

-Yes?No

 

A Rococo Study

Saturday. A morning beautified with love, glittering with heavy precipitation from the sky. It was still snowing rather hard but the wind had died down, and the air at once felt moist and warm. I went to AELTA, its office beyond the smart lavender doors brightly visible from the end of the hallway amid the noise and sounds of grade school students, who apparently have sessions six days a week. This sanctuary is located, tucked away on a corner on the second floor of school number six, near the shuka, or the bazaar, depending on whom you talk to. It is a room of around two hundred square feet, its walls newly painted with lemon yellow from the ground up and a milky white above four and a half feet, the end point of a collaborative effort of a peace corps volunteer and the staff member of the association, a stern looking, cigarette smoking middle aged women with similarly severe looking black rimmed eyeglasses that matched, a chemical engineer by training, whom with the collapse of the Soviet Union and the disappearance of area heavy industries found herself confined to this work space in this very corner of the building. The ensuring course of independence, there came massive, blanket unemployment, which had plagued the central Asian nation of A. ever since.

 

The office, I soon learnt, had until that very summer of restorative spurt of activity been, quite literally, a hole in the wall, all its walls dank and grayish green from the fervor of fungal activity, the air carnal and foul, moistened and spore saturated. The ceiling above the eleven cubic feet of space, meanwhile, had been darkened by rainwater along with the rich iron deposits it carried, water which, throughout the years numbering ten and five, have gradually found its way, seeping through the cracks of the roof of the school building, which had continued to serve its duty to house generations upon generations of changing faces with minimal, or should we say, non-existent maintenance.

 

While Russian educated S. possesses a native command of the country language and, of course, Russian, under her immediate disposal, her grasp over the elements of English was, at best, rudimentary. However, merely looking through the glasses of a casual visitor with the sole intent of catching a movie on one balmy Saturday morning, or better, a member of the Association who was there to say hello, one can see that S. has no lack of good company. For the three sides of the small room, was completely lined from corner to corner with sturdy four foot high shelves, its contents which, upon closer inspection, revealed that S. not only possess good company, but was blessed with a most elite company. Among the ranks: huddled as closely together as possible, numbering a hundred and fifty, maybe two hundred, was Penguin classics of Russian, French, and British origin, their black coats shining under the gleam of the diffuse, slightly slanted beams of the wintry sun, beams uninterrupted by the double paned glass windows entering in from the east end of the room. Among the veterans were also spotted fresh, or not so fresh, faces: The mournful, sour-looking Steinback, side-by-side with the less seriously disposed, lighthearted, Hemingway, along good old uncle Faulkner, who, however unlikely it sounds, had found new acquaintance with Orwell, forever bent on telling of oncoming destruction, and deconstruction of tongues, of suffocation in the last days. Even the all-must-read-all-time-all-American, Twain, whos fame I could never decipher, can be found tucking along, together with various minor TEFL materials, thick "how to start a small business" manuals, periodicals and stock of all walks of life, their eager, closely cropped, freshly shaved faces and smoke tanned fingers moving about, anxious for action, any action.

 

Despite of the interesting juxtaposition between the old and the new, the contrasting lemon yellow and white interiors with the sub-zero weather outside blocked by the forever faithful glass panes, the room was well warmed. A wood stove sits quietly on the forth side of the room, proximal to the one baby piece of furniture--a twenty nine inch wide-screen Panasonic television, which, thanks for the apocalyptic visions of globalization, with industrious and resourceful, ISO-900X compliant mass-manufacturing ubiquitously dotting the coastal areas of the South China Sea, as asparagus sprout after the rains of spring, was complete with alumineric, unmistakably dirt cheap plastic paneling and a completely flat screen with a dust and abrasive-resistant hard glass covering. By this very time, L., my fellow volunteer residing in town, the facilitator of the event who had assiduously made preparations and all the organizational legwork for one of these joyous, dream-like, almost romantic, occasions, had quietly slipped into the room, bringing with him a refreshing dash of the morning cold with the opening and closing of the purple door. Accompanying him were a handful of first, second, third year students currently studying in the degree program in the V. Teachers Training Institute, smartly dressed, a little too provocatively dressed one might say, outgoing, intelligent young girls in their late teens and early twenties, faces gleaming with hope and as beautiful as flowers in bloom in late April and May, such that, my dear readers, there is not the slightest question that their seemingly mindless giggles, feigned na鴳et?and chattiness, may be, without condition, fully excused.

 

A Botched Diversion.

The movie commenced, with a few minutes of typical awkwardness and small talk, without much ado, thanks largely to the smooth operations of L., or better, the operations of his nimble fingers of his right hand, his fiddling of the colorful buttons of that foolproof remote control device. So, the batteries inside were not too tired from

over consumption, the details that unfortunately remain untold for brevity sake. In my humble opinion such proceedings ought to be kept within the very room where it occurs, but of course, as with some reminders and promises and future expectations of certain favors personal and/or financial, information from minor skirmishes off the coast, classic ou-target-me-I-target-you-back?scenarios to classified state secrets, kept under a multitude of lock and key tucked neatly and safely in those boring brown cardboard folders "labelled for eyes" only in some cabinet sealed semi-permanently in a facility built with so much concrete that it supposedly can withstand nuclear blasts in more difficult times, consisting of a labyrinth of multiple, interconnected, not very well lit tunnels stretching miles and miles towards the ends of the earth. It has to be under such conditions such documents were kept in the name of national security, or simply left there and not sought after, veered away from the center of attention due to the careful interactions between the passing of time, the lapsing of memory private and public, as well as the relevance of information, the truth, may we add, and nothing but the truth and the whole truth, can be readily assessed, or better, brought with someone offering to pay the right price.

 

But let us not further dive, at this moment, into the complex groups incentive systems that, in a truly classical economic sense, the "invisible hand" that pertained to the collection and dissemination of resources and information of all kinds, which, by the way, is bounded to be perpetually asymmetric, or even, as one might argue, inconspicuously kept esoteric. But enough is enough. Lets move on, shall we?

 

Actually, in all actuality

The actual showing of the movie, which is the crux of this essay, the story that it foretold, the longwinded journey that it takes its viewers in the following one hundred and six minutes, the duration remembered for the starting and ending times of the film was written, in black on white, on the board on the wall upon which the back of the television leaned against, yes, the precise spot which one would normally expect to be met with the facade of a clock of various shapes and dimensions, now is clearly written, in quite large fonts for all in the room to see, with the signature from L right hand, in a manner resembling disengaged, half dead, part-time proctors in public examination:

 

"10:30 - 12:16"

 

,and above that, the name of the movie,

 

"All is Illuminated".

 

All this had been done, so that, during the course in which the movie was shown, the mental concentration of other members of the audience would not be disturbed by that very question inevitable, one that, unlike most other things said, seem to make a more lasting impression then the rest, accompanied by a distressed expression, in a muttering soft enough but enough volume to be carried to all ears, "So, when is this [long, brutal, torturous, I-cannot-even-figure-out-what-is-going-on with the help of subtitles, sub-par, third-rate, "art"] film going to end?" That is to say, that it was a heartfelt hope that questions similar to such are, from the very moment that the words and figures are written on the wall, banished.   

 

As for the movie, it was, indeed, a production no less spectacular. Well, realizing that I was going a little to fast, lets take a step back, shall we?

 

Student news edition

December 2nd . As for the movie, "All is Illuminated" (200X), an independent production which , judging from the title, gives off one of an unhealthily overstretched, abrasive, abusive, poorly casted (Illijah Wood behaving like Hoffman in Capote, go figure), clinging on to stereotypes, and relying on a snowballing of prejudices which had been built up, casted far and wide amongst the fish of souls, it is not a wonder the aforementioned, now operating in exile, question in the previous paragraph would get asked. All things considered, (what is up with that? as NPR does exist in this country, darn those imperialists trying to be bring what they call democracy everywhere and start wars acting like world police), and contrary to expectation, the movie is, anpayman, a splendid, almost heroic, effort. It is about a rigid search in a foreign land for roots and family history, the perpetuation of the family line, the "what happened?" with answers which, without it, the current, ritualistic but uninteresting life of the protagonist back in the United States would be, like the Japanese might say, "microbes suspended in liquid? or, like the Chinese (English?) would remark, "swallow without a nest"; "the lone orphan engulfed in the bitter seas". Another story also came into mind, that of the lone wanderer whom, while navigating the maze of Tokyo expressways lit by the green ghostly hues from office buildings and employees bent from overtime, the driver of the vehicle who might, or might just refrain from, in the two-and-a-half seconds before the impact imminent which would violently reduce the 280ps R32, and its sole occupant, into a heap resembling a curled up box of Marlboro Reds, mysteriously mutter, "Knock, the door gets barred from the inside. Seek, little shall ye find. Ask, and you are bound to get answers so painful you wish you had never been born?" Deafening crash. But of course, it is speculation; there is just no way anyone can say that in two and a half seconds right? Well, maybe the announcers in those drug ads can. But, all in all, there the big questions that were asked by ordinary people all the time. hy are you here??here are you from??here are you going??This movie, ll is Illuminated? dealt particularly with the one in the middle. Highly recommend. Do have some minor flaws, say Elijah Wood, but otherwise, a good one. 106 minutes. At the ALETA this Saturday 10:30. Again at the Y next Monday 14:00. D.B.

 

(Exeunt)

12.02.2006, Sat. 12:24. The day was young. The dues, which sustained the heating of the room during the course of the movie, were diligently paid, like one standing in line at the post for half an hour to clear the monthly phone bill, since over here the lines do get cut off when dues are not paid, bringing much inconvenience. The firewood in the stove smoldered, some nice white ones. The smart purple doors of the V. branch of the AELTA winged wide open; figures emerged, like fishes wading through the Big Reef. The air was cold, the very formal "Good bye? and "Until next time?heard briefly before dissipating into voices of pupils erupting from the corridors on the second and first floors of the school buildings. That very noise reminded me, and I sure would not forget that one, that hope does springs eternal. Until next time or never.

 

Epilogue

-Heard you met with the French girls yesterday

-I did.

-And later? So was it good? (nudge, wink, attempt to grab hands, pat shoulder)

-Yes?i>Huh?


(Its never too late, or rather, too early, but I wish all of you a MERRY CHRISTMAS, and HAPPY NEW YEAR. Roger out.)



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